Intimacy Will Cost You Everything, Am I Worth It
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February 19, 2025
Lord, my mind is everywhere. Please, I want to have your mind. I had the most amazing time in worship, Lord, just being reminded of Your faithfulness and what a great privilege and honour it is to be known, loved, and to commune with You. Lord. Help me to not trade it for anything else in the world.
Jesus, what’s on your heart?
Jesus began,
“My beloved I wouldn’t trade what we have for anything else in the universe. You are one of a kind. Your friends, your relationship, your love, and worship are like no other. No one can ever fit the place that is etched out for you alone in My heart. I adore you; I love you and take great pleasure and delight in our intimacy together. That is why I unite Myself with you so closely; because I know you love Me for Me. It took a long time to get here but you were so worth the wait. I had to take you through all the turns, trials, testings first to get you to this place. So, now do you see how I work everything out for your good and how each fiery trial was very necessary to draw you closer and deeper in union with Me?”
Yes, Lord, I do. I know You. We have been through so much together. It is a real authentic relationship and friendship with You, and I am just in awe. Thank you for loving me so well.
“Yes, My beloved little one, there is so much more to come! I am bringing this all to your mind, so you no longer fear suffering. You rather get to a place where you rejoice because you can look back now at all your sufferings and the hardest trials I allowed, and you now rejoice in them because you got to know Me very well through them. You learned about My character, My nature, and My heart for you. And you met then your Defender, your Deliverer, and even your Father, knowing that you are never alone─ no, not ever. I will always come through for you every time, My beloved little one. We are doing this life on earth together. What many get to feel in eternity, I have released the grace to have you commune with Me like that now so there is no difference when you step into heaven because you are living heaven on earth. Just, when you arrive home, you will see Me more physically and more clearly. But that is it. You have Me all to yourself now. I mean all of Me entirely, My beloved one. I withhold nothing of Myself from you, so please don't hold from Me.
“My brides, I feel the same about each of you. Each of you is so unique. Don’t ever compare yourself to another bride. And don’t be jealous of their gifts, of their virtues, and even their relationship with Me unless it leads you to righteous jealousy that causes you to seek Me UNTIL you find Me, and give whatever sacrifice to have more of Me. Do you want Me entirely? Do you desire this intimacy and closeness? Oh, My brides, I want it far more than you do. I have waited for all eternity until this moment to have you all to Myself.
“Do you know what stands in the way of many of you,? It's your sacrifice or your lack thereof. This little one has been tested and tried and tried and tested, having to give up many things for Me. I have taken her through various Abraham tests and her faith has been counted as righteousness. I told her she was to be married. When she finally accepted the proposal, I told her to give it up entirely; to let him go and the idea of marriage gone because I was returning in the rapture. She cried but laid the desire of marriage at the altar. Then I gave it back to her. I asked her to give her family up, her friends, and the ministry she started with the homeless, to follow Me to the unknown; to the mountain.
"It would cost her everything again, the marriage that I promised her, and although she kicked and screamed at the idea, she relented and left everything to follow Me. She lost everything; her family, her friends, her ministry, and her engagement. But she gained Me in return. She gained a ministry in return ─ she gained an international ministry. She gained back her marriage her family, new friends and so much more. I am that faithful and all that I ask of you, I give in return a 100 hundredfold. I asked her for her rest and her sleep, demanding many sleepless nights to get ministry work done.
"To be faithful to the channel and the gifts I have given her. Although it was difficult, as others to their leisure time, she was faithful to My demands. I blessed her with many sheep who had been led astray, lost in My sheepfold, and have now found intimacy with Me because of her sacrifice. There were days of fasting and self-denial and self-privation, by My grace, to receive greater anointing and grace for all I have desired for her.
“And in her marriage, that has been tested and tried, at any point she could have left my promise. I still would have continued to walk with her, love her, and commune with her but not as close as we are now. Yet she trusted, she waited, she believed beyond hope when many times it was shaky, wobbly, and feeling dead. She didn’t let go and because of it, her marriage will be a testimony. “
As an aside, family, in worship lately, I am just overwhelmed by God's faithfulness. I find myself crying and shedding tears over his goodness over the course of my life. We have been through sooo… much together. As memories of each fiery trial come to my mind I see how Jesus brought me out of them one, by one, by one, by one. Indeed, it is through suffering that the fruit of intimacy is birthed. I can confidently say that I know Him, not because I read His Word, go to church, or pray but because Jesus communes with me, He guides me, He speaks to me, and he has come to my defence time and time again.
Although each suffering seemed so overwhelming. There were some trials where I felt that I wouldn't make it through, that were definitely going to destroy me or even tempt me to lose my faith in Him, but He pulled me through. Truly, love deepens when purified.
So, when the Lord purifies our love through the trials of life, our love for Him naturally deepens if we let go, finally surrender to what he permits, and cling to Him. We will grow deeper in love with Him rather than being more bitter or resentful.
I can now look back and talk to Jesus as I would an old friend or lover, saying “Remember this”, “Oooh, remember this time? I didnt think I would make it”, “Oh, remember this other time?” I just cry seeing His fingerprints and His hands of deliverance that saved me and brought about His promises to life. Even when there were times I didn’t have faith, He had faith for me and brought me to the expected end.
So, I finally understand why the saints rejoiced in their suffering, not only because it gave them an opportunity to showcase God's love back to Him but indeed it draws you so much deeper and closer into His love. No one can ever take that away from me. I know Him very personally so no manner of enticement, by His grace, will cause me to renounce Him, because it's like denying a friend of course.
Let me not speak out of my own pride or strength and fall like Peter did because I can be very much a Peter actually, I am [Laugh]. There were moments I said Lord, “I will die for You, whatever it is!” And each trial that came, when I had to do a White Martyr’s death (which means not to physically die but to die in my soul because of heartbreak or something being taken from me ...boy did I fight it. Sometimes, well many times resented it. I was even tempted to curse God. And at times, I would even call the cross a curse. Honestly…oh…my goodness!
Truly, walking with Jesus is not easy at all, but He always gave me the grace to dust myself off, wipe my face, put on my big girl panties [laugh] get up again, and continue to follow Him.
Jesus continued,
“My brides, I don’t share this to puff her up at all. She is so weak in so many areas… and, in fact, in all the areas. I mentioned she never relied on her own strength to get her through each trial. She couldn’t because she would be unable to survive. But rather she leaned in, ran to Me, touched the hem of My garment, cried out to Me in tears of passion, sometimes frustration and anger but yielded in obedience to My will and we fought through each battle one after one after one as she saw the victory.
“Intimacy will cost you everything, My beloved brides. And I desire that with each of you. Please do not refuse Me anything. Indeed, I am the God who gives and who takes away. Will you still love Me, when I take away? Will you still seek Me out when you have nothing to praise Me for? Will you still sing of My faithfulness when it seems everything is going the complete opposite [of what] you planned? Love Me for Me, My beloved brides, love Me for Me and enter into My presence with worship and thanksgiving. For there you will find your strength, there you will find Me and there I will wait for you to shower you with My love, to wrap My arms around you to strength you, heal you, console you, and even laugh with you in joy. Even in the hard moments because I know you will have the victory and someday soon you will look back and say Thank You, Jesus, for each cross that drew Me closer to You.”
That was the end of Jesus' message.
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