November 15, 2024
In my previous message, From Abortion to Restoration, I briefly spoke about the conversation that I had with my baby girl, Jasmine (the one whom I had aborted) after a visit to heaven by Mother Elisha, where she met my little girl. Jasmine had begged her to please talk to me and encourage me to try to press in, to make a visit to heaven to speak to her—and I did. This is the conversation from that time.
Jasmine
“Hi Mommy, hi Mommy!”
Me
“Hi, my baby. Is that really you or is it Mommy’s imagination?”
Jasmine
“It’s me, Mommy. I’ve been wanting to speak with you for so long. But you’re scared, Mommy. Don’t be scared. I love you and I forgive you. You have to forgive yourself now., okay?”
Me
“Okay, my baby, I’ll try. I’m so sorry for what I did to you—for what I did to your father. Pray for him.”
Jasmine
“I do, Mommy, always, always.”
Me
“I love you, but it is hard for me to imagine that I’m someone’s real mother. I feel so ashamed that I took your life—that I’m sure, with everything in me, could have changed the world. I was so scared, baby. I was scared of what people would say. I was scared that your father would leave me to raise you alone. I was scared, and I’m sorry.
Jasmine
“Mommy I knew your heart, and you’re the best Mommy. I chose you do you know? I was conceived in sin, but I came in love—to love you, Mommy—like the love you never felt or knew.“
Me
“I ruined it, I know.”
Jasmine
“No, Mommy, nothing is ruined but reunited is what we will be soon, my queen Mommy. I long to hold you and feel you wrapped around me so tightly. And yes, Mommy, your hugs are anointed, like a warm cup of coffee, to your friends. Those who know, Mommy, they know. I dream of your hugs Mommy, and your sweet, tender kisses. Oh, my Mommy. My Mommy is the best, sweetest, most kind, loving Mommy. Yes, Mommy, it’s true. Please don’t doubt that I love you.”
That was the end of the conversation.
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